The irony was that while my body was protesting about the physical demands of fishing, my waistline was probably expanding. Heaven help the scales when I eventually got home, although that was one competition I was quite prepared to lose. For now, the only numbers requiring my serious attention were the ones attached to the leaderboard.
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THE LEGENDRY SWAINER – Chapter 9 – Day Three – The Shark Gambit
In both cases, failure quickly became public property. Lose a fish to a shark and three other fishermen could immediately explain your mistake; lose a hand of cards and everybody around the table suddenly knew which card you should have kept. The only defence was to win often enough to earn the right to provide the same assistance to somebody else.
THE LEGENDRY SWAINER – Chapter 10 – Day Four – Cabin Fever at Sea
It also showed how quickly the little society aboard Big Cat Reality was forming. Twenty-four hours earlier I had been a bloke standing beside somebody else’s card game; now I knew who was noisy, who was quiet, who understood the game and who was capable of punishing an error before you had finished regretting it. The same thing was happening everywhere aboard the boat, with fishing, meals, cabins and evening card games gradually turning a collection of passengers into people with histories, reputations and increasingly usable material against one another.
THE LEGENDRY SWAINER – Chapter 11 – Day Five – Last Day Out Wide
It may even have been the best result of the day, although I am reluctant to overstate that point while leading Trophy One by a considerable margin. There are priorities in life, after all, and on the eve of the final fishing day mine had become increasingly clear.
THE LEGENDRY SWAINER – Chapter 12 – Day Six – Judgement Day
For nearly a week our world has been reduced to weather, reefs, meals, dories, knots, rods, fish and the ongoing responsibility of ensuring that no mate becomes too pleased with himself. Tomorrow the phones will work properly, roads will replace water and all the ordinary things we temporarily left behind will begin reclaiming their positions. Tonight, however, there are trophies to settle, evidence to review and one last opportunity for the defeated parties to establish that the result would have been entirely different if only several fish that escaped had displayed a little more respect for the rules.
THE LEGENDRY SWAINER – Chapter 13 – The Longest Drive in Australian History
My body is less enthusiastic about the achievement. A week of being bounced by swell, bracing against boats, hauling fish, twisting, reaching and climbing in and out of bunks has been followed by eleven hours sitting almost motionless behind a steering wheel, and everything now seems to hurt in a different way. The recliner therefore becomes less a piece of furniture than the final destination of the expedition.
THE LEGENDRY SWAINER – Chapter 14 – Epilogue – So When Are We Going Again
Perhaps that is also why trips such as this become increasingly important. As we get older, there are more reasons not to do things, more comforts available at home and considerably more information being supplied by various parts of the body about activities they no longer consider appropriate. The answer cannot always be to listen to them, because eventually the safest possible life would involve remaining in a comfortable chair and looking at photographs of things we once did. I am not ready for that yet, particularly when there are still fish at Swains Reef apparently unaware that I have plans for them.
OUT OF VOICE REACH – Foreword
This book is for anyone who has ever wondered why success did not feel like arrival. It is for anyone who has ever been praised for coping while quietly wishing someone would ask what the coping was costing. It is for anyone who has stood close enough to hear the laughter but far enough away to wonder whether stepping in would be welcomed.
OUT OF VOICE REACH – Chapter 1 – Out of Voice Reach
There is a danger in writing about isolation that the story becomes too neat. The lonely child becomes the striving man, the striving man becomes the tired retiree, and everyone nods as though life has arranged itself into a tidy sequence for the benefit of readers. I do not trust neatness, because my life has usually arrived in tangles, contradictions, half-finished explanations and moments that meant one thing at the time and another thing thirty years later.
OUT OF VOICE REACH – Chapter 2 – The Bus Ride In
I do not know whether I would change that boy’s life if I could, because changing one part of a life has a way of unravelling the rest. The striving that cost me also carried me, and the loneliness that hurt me also taught me to observe, remember, work and endure. That is the uncomfortable truth of it, and memoir becomes dishonest when it pretends our wounds did not also shape our strengths.
OUT OF VOICE REACH – Chapter 3 – Better
Being better was never the whole answer. It was a tool, a shield, a passport stamped only for temporary entry. It got me through school days, gave me moments of pride, and allowed me to stand in places I might otherwise never have reached. But it did not solve the deeper ache because the ache was not really about marks, runs, tackles, ribbons or selections. It was about wanting to be known without having to perform first.
OUT OF VOICE REACH – Chapter 4 – The Outlying School Boy
The outlying school boy carried more than a schoolbag. He carried the farm road, the primary school bus rides, the related children who were still not quite his people, the marks that impressed adults and separated him from classmates, and the sporting hopes that gave him a place only while he kept earning it. He carried all of that into secondary school and then, without quite noticing, carried it into the rest of his life.