It became hard to separate the illness from the depression that had already wrapped itself around me. They fed each other, one dragging me down physically, the other mentally, until the difference between tired and defeated blurred completely.
Books
Making an Unordinary Accountant Chapter 9 – The Rise of NYOA (Not Your Ordinary Accountant)
The tagline, Not Your Ordinary Accountant, didn’t even arrive until much later. When it did, it wasn’t crafted; it was observed. It was someone else holding up a mirror and saying, “This is who you’ve been all along.”
Making an Unordinary Accountant Chapter 11 – Taking Me on the Road
People stayed back. Not for selfies. For conversations. Not “how much do you change?” But “can you help me unwind this?”
Making an Unordinary Accountant Chapter 12 – Cracks Start Appearing
The decision to sell wasn’t emotional. It was practical. Almost administrative. When a business no longer recognises your authority, staying becomes theatre. And theatre is expensive.
Making an Unordinary Accountant Chapter 13 – Where to Now
Maybe it’s enough to know that we showed up, leaned in, carried responsibility when it was heavy, let go when it was time, and lived in a way that didn’t require a scoreboard to validate it.
Death By a 1000 Cuts – Foreword and About the Author
This book is not about a single catastrophic failure. It is not the story of fraud, scandal, or reckless extravagance. It is something far more common, and therefore far more confronting. It is the story of accumulation.
Death By a 1000 Cuts – Chapter 1 – I Am Not Employable
Mandy was right in that emotional corridor, right between heaven and hell, living the sequel Chapin sang about before she even knew her first story had ended.
Death By a 1000 Cuts – Chapter 2 – The Trigger
In that light, the business wasn’t just a venture. It was a vehicle. The only visible path to stability in a life that had been shaken loose.
Death By a 1000 Cuts – Chapter 3 – The Entrepreneurial Bug
She wasn’t thinking in terms of structures and spreadsheets. Those were my domains, and they would come. She was thinking in terms of outcomes: a complementary health practice of her own. A space built around her strengths
Death By a 1000 Cuts – Chapter 4 – How Do I Fund it
Cashflow becomes her Black Dog. Not a dramatic, snarling beast… but a low, persistent shadow.
It walks just behind her. She can’t escape it, because part of her doesn’t want to.
Death By a 1000 Cuts – Chapter 5 – The Road Blocks
The great irony of entrepreneurship is that the people who benefit most from small businesses, landlords, local suppliers, tradespeople, councils, are often the ones who create the most friction.